{"quotes":[{"text":"Luke said that he was surprised when I showed up at his room. That he hadn’t meant to give me the wrong idea. That he would never have taken it beyond just kissing. And he looked so genuine. So trustworthy. So sorry about what had happened. He almost convinced me that I’d misread his signals.” Hallelujah pauses. “The whole time, I kept my mouth shut. I wish I hadn’t. But I was still so humiliated. And I felt guilty. I made out with him. I liked it. And no one made me go to his room.”Her voice breaks. She has to swallow past a lump in her throat.“I know Luke’s not a good guy. I know what he did isn’t my fault. It’s his. But still, none of it would’ve happened if I hadn’t gone to his room.”She’s almost there. Almost done. Almost heard. Something deep inside her hurts like it hasn’t hurt in a long time. But she knows that this gash had to reopen in order to heal. That’s how wounds work. They need air.“I knew I’d get punished, and I did. My parents grounded me. I was put on youth group probation. But I honestly thought Luke’s lies would just fade away if I kept a low profile. There’s always gossip about someone. This time it was me.”...“Luke is still telling people about what supposedly happened that night,” Hallelujah says. “And he makes fun of me. All the time. What I look like, what I say, my name. And he does this thing at church: whenever we sing a hymn with my name in it, he sings it like he’s hooking up with me. He sings the word ‘hallelujah’ at me. He moans it. And I hate it.” That’s one of the reasons she stopped singing: his voice, his fake grunts of satisfaction, ruining the music she loved so much.“You said,” she says to Jonah, “he wanted to keep me upset. To keep me from telling anyone what really happened. Well, it worked.” She pauses. “Until now.”“Until now,” Rachel repeats. Then she curses. “I can’t believe him. I can’t believe he got away with it.”“I let him get away with it,” Hallelujah says softly.“No. He’s the one who crossed the line. And okay, maybe you could’ve spoken up sooner. But if no one pushed you for your side of the story, that’s on them.” Rachel yawns and stretches. “And when we get home, we’re going to set the record straight.","author":"Kathryn Holmes","tags":["bully","get-away-with-it","hallelujah-calhoun","harass","hate","jonah","lies","luke-willis","punished","rachel-jackson","singing","torment"],"id":2475,"author_id":"Kathryn+Holmes"},{"text":"To die or not to die, that is the question; it is nobler to live in torment and rage than not to live at all?","author":"Anne Rice","tags":["death","living","rage","torment"],"id":3366,"author_id":"Anne+Rice"},{"text":"It has to be emphasized that if the pain were readily describable most of the countless sufferers from this ancient affliction would have been able to confidently depict for their friends and loved ones (even their physicians) some of the actual dimensions of their torment, and perhaps elicit a comprehension that has been generally lacking; such incomprehension has usually been due not to a failure of sympathy but to the basic inability of healthy people to imagine a form of torment so alien to everyday experience.","author":"William Styron","tags":["comprehension","depressed","depression","health","mental-illness","pain","sufferer","sympathy","torment","understanding"],"id":6874,"author_id":"William+Styron"},{"text":"I was walking among the fires of Hell, delighted with the enjoyments of Genius; which to Angels look like torment and insanity.","author":"William Blake","tags":["angels","genius","hell","insanity","torment"],"id":15509,"author_id":"William+Blake"},{"text":"The torment of love can transform people into wretched monsters.","author":"Mathias Malzieu","tags":["love","monsters","torment","transform","wretch"],"id":28743,"author_id":"Mathias+Malzieu"},{"text":"It's spider season. Every year, right about now, thousands of the godless eight-legged bastards emerge from the bowels of hell (or the garden, whichever's nearest) with the sole intention of tormenting humankind.","author":"Charlie Brooker","tags":["arachnophobia","dread","fear","funny","humor","humour","spiders","torment"],"id":30854,"author_id":"Charlie+Brooker"},{"text":"To my abusers: I forgive you.","author":"Pattie Mallette","tags":["inspirational","justin-bieber","loving","pain","pattie-malette","suffering","torment","victims"],"id":46543,"author_id":"Pattie+Mallette"},{"text":"Tristetea, ca si suferinta, ne revela existenta, deoarece în ele avem în constiinta separatia noastra de lumea obiectiva si nelinistea care da un caracter tragic vietuirii în existenta.Daca ar exista un zeu al tristetii, lui nu I-ar putea creste decât aripi negre si grele, pentru a zbura nu înspre ceruri, ci în infern.","author":"Emil M. Cioran","tags":["existence","fatality","philosophy","torment"],"id":66287,"author_id":"Emil+M.+Cioran"},{"text":"All at once I feel desperate, outraged. Why am I alone doomed to spend nights of torment, with an unseen jailer, when all the rest of the world sleeps peacefully? By what laws have I been tried and condemned, without my knowledge, and to such a heavy sentence, too, when I do not even know of what or by whom I have been indicted? A wild impulse comes to me to protest, to demand a hearing, to refuse to submit any longer to such injustice. But to whom can one appeal when one does not even know where to find the judge? How can one ever hope to prove one’s innocence when there is no means of knowing of what one has been accused? No, there’s no justice for people like us in the world: all that we can do is to suffer as bravely as possible and put our oppressors to shame.","author":"Anna Kavan","tags":["alone","condemned","desperate","doomed","injustice","suffering","torment"],"id":78252,"author_id":"Anna+Kavan"},{"text":"What love is not torment when a man knows not how to love himself? Talk not of drowning, but attaining your heart's desire by action: Put money in thy purse.","author":"Christopher Moore","tags":["love","money","torment"],"id":83080,"author_id":"Christopher+Moore"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":64,"pages":7,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}