{"quotes":[{"text":"I couldn't decide how to feel about what he was saying, whether it was all nonsense or just more evidence that I would never understand this world.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","nonsense","the-answers","uncomprehending","world"],"id":22285,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"But what had really happened? It was still unclear. Was it possible nothing of any significance had ever happened between us and our ending was just the sad process of realizing this?","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["breakup","catherine-lacey","relationship","the-answers"],"id":66015,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"He excused himself for a nap, and this day blended into his dreams like like years blended into a life, unseen but still felt, the line between memory and present always bleeding.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","dreams","life","reality","simile","the-answers","years"],"id":172007,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"I sometimes wondered why I even answered the phone, but I guess I always had the hope that it would be someone else, some other way of life calling for me.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","hope","the-answers"],"id":201984,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"Maybe I will always have to love the idea of love or a concept of God more than I can love a person.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","god","high-standards","idealistic","love","the-answers","unattainable"],"id":213635,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"Speaking felt impossible, as contained and enclosed as she was, a longing that went on a loop, a longing for nothing at all.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","contained","longing","speechless","the-answers"],"id":268798,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"Past love is as good as a past dream, intangible, impossible to share.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","dreams","inexpressible","intangible","love","past-love","simile","the-answers","unexplainable"],"id":278357,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"I closed my eyes, tried to get as far away from myself as I could.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","dissociation","escape","self","the-answers"],"id":306514,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"He would never be that way again. He would never have the power of that specific kind of not-knowing.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","changed","ignorance","irreversible","point-of-no-return","the-answers"],"id":334396,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"I needed nothing and was needed nowhere. I almost doubted I was alive.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","closed-off","dead","isolated","the-answers","unneeded","unreality","unwanted"],"id":337132,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":15,"pages":2,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}