{"quotes":[{"text":"Mais, vrai, J'ai trop pleure! Les aubes sont navrantes. What a sad and beautiful line that is. I'd always hoped that someday I'd be able to use it.","author":"Donna Tartt","tags":["french","madness","sanity","suicide-note","the-secret-history"],"id":36079,"author_id":"Donna+Tartt"},{"text":"You make me lovely, and it's so lovely to be lovely to the one I love...","author":"Jennifer Niven","tags":["romance","suicide","suicide-note","theodore-finch"],"id":45871,"author_id":"Jennifer+Niven"},{"text":"There used to be days that I thought I was okay, or at least that I was going to be. We'd be hanging out somewhere and everything would just fit right and I would think 'it will be okay if it can just be like this forever' but of course nothing can ever stay just how it is forever.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["forever","friendship","love","okay","suicide","suicide-note"],"id":78264,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"And I want to tell you about everything but I can't because I couldn't stand for you to have that look on your face all the time. I just need you to look at me and think that I'm normal. I just really need that from you.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["regret","suicide","suicide-note"],"id":81320,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"I sometimes stare into fire or into the night sky alone and wish for a girl or my situation to be different. I also then think why would god who created the beautiful Earth let Humans suffer and act the way they do. But I then realize that god has left you and everyone else a long time ago. This is the reason why I do not live my life for him. Because in the end, the only god who is always guaranteed to call for you by name, is Death.","author":"J.D. Taylor","tags":["death","god","suicide","suicide-note"],"id":99757,"author_id":"J.D.+Taylor"},{"text":"If you're selfish enough to kill yourself write your suicide note on the back of your will.","author":"Stanley Victor Paskavich","tags":["bipolar","mental-illness","ptsd","suicide","suicide-attempt","suicide-note"],"id":162185,"author_id":"Stanley+Victor+Paskavich"},{"text":"Finished in a frenzy that reminded me of our last night in Cambridge. Watched my final sunrise. Enjoyed a last cigarette. Didn’t think the view could be any more perfect until I saw that beat-up trilby. Honestly, Sixsmith, as ridiculous as that thing makes you look, I don’t believe I’ve ever seen anything more beautiful. Watched you for as long as I dared. I don’t believe it was a fluke that I saw you first. I believe there is another world waiting for us, Sixsmith. A better world, and I’ll be waiting for you there. I believe we do not stay dead long. Find me beneath the Corsican stars, where we first kissed.Yours eternally, R.F.","author":"David Mitchell","tags":["cloud-atlas","love","love-letter","lovers","suicide-note"],"id":204008,"author_id":"David+Mitchell"},{"text":"This is what I want so don't be sad.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["friendship","love","regret","sad","suicide","suicide-note"],"id":205761,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"You ought to know, you were my best friend. You were. I know you loved me. I loved you.No one should have gone through what we went through, but we did. And it kills me to think of it.But I didn't love you like you loved me. I don't hate you for that. It just makes me sorry, that there isn't someone else who could love you better.I know when you think about how I went, you'll get it. I was always uneasy about being alive. The idea of being dead makes me feel clear. When I think of it. It makes me think peace, peace, peace. It makes me happy. I am looking forward to it, to the absence of everything. And so I want you to be happy for me, that this is better for me. That I found what I needed. I know you won't be. But it's the last thing I want. You happy.","author":"Alexander Chee","tags":["death","friendship","love","suicide","suicide-note","wisdom"],"id":254088,"author_id":"Alexander+Chee"},{"text":"Dearest, I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel we can't go through another of those terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can't concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think two people could have been happier 'til this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that – everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been. V.","author":"Virginia Woolf","tags":["death-and-dying","depression","love","marriage","suicide-note"],"id":308307,"author_id":"Virginia+Woolf"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":14,"pages":2,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}