{"quotes":[{"text":"When the patient began speaking, Robert continued, he sounded unlike any person I have ever met before. Sure, his actions signaled that he was crazy, but his presence… Jessica, his presence was like what I imagine it would be to be close to a holy person or a spiritual master. I mean, that is really the only conclusion I can come to.And the holy guy tried to kill himself? Come on Robert. That just sounds ridiculous.","author":"Gudjon Bergmann","tags":["meditation","spirituality","suicide-attempt"],"id":1752,"author_id":"Gudjon+Bergmann"},{"text":"It is like oil. Like molasses, slow at first.Then one morning I woke up and it was flowing free and fast. I thought I would drown in it. I thought it would drown little you and Susan. I got up, got dressed and went out onto the road and tried to jump in front of a bus. I thought it would be a final thing, quick like a bang. Only , it wasn't.","author":"Jerry Pinto","tags":["depression","suicide-attempt"],"id":19695,"author_id":"Jerry+Pinto"},{"text":"A bind is when you're quadriplegic, suicidal about that and unable to persuade your best friend to murder you.","author":"Brian Spellman","tags":["disability","disabled","suicide","suicide-attempt"],"id":43541,"author_id":"Brian+Spellman"},{"text":"The reason I don't Kill Myselfis because I know I can.","author":"Stanley Victor Paskavich","tags":["bi-polar","mental-disorders","mental-health","suicide","suicide-attempt"],"id":69973,"author_id":"Stanley+Victor+Paskavich"},{"text":"It’s a little-known secret, and it should probably stay that way: attempting suicide usually jump-starts your brain chemistry. There must be something about taking all those pills that either floods the brain sufficiently or depletes it so completely that balance is restored. Whatever the mechanism, the result is that you emerge on the other side of the attempt with an awareness of what it means to be alive. Simple acts seem miraculous: you can stand transfixed for hours just watching the wind ruffle the tiny hairs along the top of your arm. And always, with every sensation, is the knowledge that you must have survived for a reason. You just can’t doubt it anymore. You must have a purpose, or you would have died. You have the rest of your life to discover what that purpose is. And you can’t wait to start looking.","author":"Terri Cheney","tags":["depression","epiphany","manic-depression","mental-health","mental-illness","suicide","suicide-attempt"],"id":81364,"author_id":"Terri+Cheney"},{"text":"That day wasn't the first time I had attempted suicide. Simply disappearing into the distant nothingness where there was no pain and no more feelings - back then I thought it an act of empowerment. Otherwise I had very little power to make any decisions about my life, my body, my actions. Taking my own life seemed my last trump card.","author":"Natascha Kampusch","tags":["depression","despair","hostage","kidnapped","kidnapping","powerless","powerlessness","suicidal","suicide","suicide-attempt","trauma","victim"],"id":99689,"author_id":"Natascha+Kampusch"},{"text":"I used to think it utterly normal that I suffered from “suicidal ideation” on an almost daily basis. In other words, for as long as I can remember, the thought of ending my life came to me frequently and obsessively.","author":"Stephen Fry","tags":["bipolar-disorder","mental-illness","suicidal","suicidal-ideation","suicidal-thoughts","suicide","suicide-attempt"],"id":109438,"author_id":"Stephen+Fry"},{"text":"Everyone has scars, they just aren’t as visible as yours.","author":"Anne Eliot","tags":["anxiety","depression","mental-illness","sad","scars","suicide-attempt"],"id":112074,"author_id":"Anne+Eliot"},{"text":"To faith doubt is a sin, to science a virtue, to love a cancer and to life, suicide.","author":"Bangambiki Habyarimana","tags":["doubt","doubters","doubtful","doubtful-thoughts","doubtfulness","doubting","doubting-mind","doubts","doubts","faith","faith-in-god","faith-in-yourself","faith","faith-reason","faith-vs-reason","faithful","faithfulness","love","love","love","science","science-vs-religion","sin","sins","suicide","suicide-attempt","suicide-thoughts"],"id":119090,"author_id":"Bangambiki+Habyarimana"},{"text":"I half-expect to check out, but I'm really there for it. It's not like at the dance, angry and forced. It's terrible in its gentleness and he's just wasting it on me.","author":"Courtney Summers","tags":["cracked-up-to-be","drama","suicide-attempt","teens"],"id":150200,"author_id":"Courtney+Summers"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":34,"pages":4,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}