{"quotes":[{"text":"Oh God, God, why did you take such trouble to force this creature out of its shell if it is now doomed to crawl back -- to be sucked back -- into it?","author":"C.S. Lewis","tags":["death","grief","grieving","loss","stillbirth"],"id":71394,"author_id":"C.S.+Lewis"},{"text":"Her mother’s quiet disapproval and withdrawal was a death in itself, and Franckline’s despair at it was transmitted, she was sure of it, to the child. She transgressed twice, first by making the child, then by giving it her despair, the despair that left it unable to live.","author":"Pamela Erens","tags":["bad-mothering","child-of-rape","childbirth","grief","loss","rape-survivor","shame","stillbirth"],"id":132804,"author_id":"Pamela+Erens"},{"text":"At her words, words of forgiveness from Rose, an honest and just woman, something broke inside of Wince. His tears began to flow. Age seemed to drift from his face like misty ghosts from a morning field. Katie lifted his chin and, holding back her own tears, looked into his eyes. 'Thank you, Wince.'Eve placed her free hand on his shoulder. 'May we hold her now?'Wince nodded and gently released the baby into the waiting arms of her sisters.'You did the right thing, Wince.' Rose gave Wince a hug. 'And you can help us bury her after Wilson and the Tar Ponds City Police see if they can find anybody to lay charges against after all this time.","author":"Beatrice Rose Roberts","tags":["baby","bury","canada","cape-breton","community","cops","crime","criminal","cry","crying","depression","family","forgiveness","friendship","funeral","grief","help","lonliness","man","nova-scotia","police","redemption","regret","science","sisters","stillbirth","sydney-tar-ponds","testing","twins","unborn"],"id":145189,"author_id":"Beatrice+Rose+Roberts"},{"text":"A greater love was always with me. Guiding me and waiting for me to surrender myself so that the glory of grief could bring me back to joy, where it greeted me once again.” - Just Be.","author":"Lindsa Gibson","tags":["grief","ppd","rape","stillbirth"],"id":233423,"author_id":"Lindsa+Gibson"},{"text":"If a mother is mourning not for what she has lost but for what her dead child has lost, it is a comfort to believe that the child has not lost the end for which it was created. And it is a comfort to believe that she herself, in losing her chief or only natural happiness, has not lost a greater thing, that she may still hope to 'glorify God and enjoy Him forever.' A comfort to the God-aimed, eternal spirit within her. But not to her motherhood. The specifically maternal happiness must be written off. Never, in any place or time, will she have her son on her knees, or bathe him, or tell him a story, or plan for his future, or see her grandchild.","author":"C.S. Lewis","tags":["babyloss","death","grief","grieving","loss","miscarriage","perinatal-death","sids","stillbirth"],"id":243942,"author_id":"C.S.+Lewis"},{"text":"Her absence is like the sky, spread over everything.But no, that is not quite accurate. There is one place where her absence comes locally home to me, and it is a place I can't avoid. I mean my own body. It had such a different importance while it was the body of H.'s lover. Now it's like an empty house.","author":"C.S. Lewis","tags":["babyloss","death","faith","grief","grieving","loss","stillbirth"],"id":280736,"author_id":"C.S.+Lewis"},{"text":"I am not functioning very well. Living with the knowledge that the baby is dead is painful. I feel so far away from you, God. I can only try to believe that you are sustaining me and guiding me through this. Please continue to stand by my side.","author":"Christine O'Keeffe Lafser","tags":["babyloss","faith","grief","infant-death","miscarriage","sids","stillbirth"],"id":339059,"author_id":"Christine+O%27Keeffe+Lafser"},{"text":"My idea of God is not a divine idea. It has to be shattered time after time. He shatters it Himself.","author":"C.S. Lewis","tags":["death","faith","grief","grieving","loss","stillbirth"],"id":355889,"author_id":"C.S.+Lewis"},{"text":"For in grief nothing 'stays put.' One keeps on emerging from a phase, but it always recurs. Round and round. Everything repeats. Am I going in circles, or dare I hope I am on a spiral?But if a spiral, am I going up or down it?How often -- will it be for always? -- how often will the vast emptiness astonish me like a complete novelty and make me say, 'I never realized my loss till this moment'? The same leg is cut off time after time.","author":"C.S. Lewis","tags":["death","faith","grief","grieving","loss","stillbirth"],"id":404386,"author_id":"C.S.+Lewis"},{"text":"Her body accepted my brutal seed and took it to swell within, just as the patient earth accepts a falling fruit into its tender soil to cradle and nourish it to grow. Came a time, just springtime last, our infant child pushed through the fragile barrier of her womb. Her legs branched out, just as the wood branches out from these eternal trees around us; but she was not hardy as they. My wife groaned with blood and ceased to breathe. Aye!, a scornful eve that bred the kind of pain only a god can withstand.","author":"Roman Payne","tags":["babies","baby","blood","chidbirth","child","cradle","death","death-and-dying","death-inspirational","dying","earth","eternal","fruit","god","god-s-love","growth","infant","life","nourish","nourishment","pain","painful","pregnancy","pregnant","pregnant-woman","pregnant-women","soil","sorrow","sorrowful","stillbirth","womb"],"id":414935,"author_id":"Roman+Payne"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":12,"pages":2,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}