{"quotes":[{"text":"The scabs feel like I have a message on my arm. Something that needs to be read, urgently, by someone. It was only years later that I realized the person I had written that message to- the person who wasn't listening- was me. I was the one who should have been staring at that arm, and working out what the red hieroglyphics meant. Had I translated them, I would have realized those red lines read: 'Never feel this bad again. Never come back to this place, where only a knife will do. Live a gentle and kind life. Don't do things that make you want to hurt yourself. Whatever you do, every day, remember this- then steer away from here.","author":"Caitlin Moran","tags":["cutting","depression","self-harm","self-mutilation"],"id":412,"author_id":"Caitlin+Moran"},{"text":"Your identity is not in who you can be. It is in who you always have been.","author":"Ricky Maye","tags":["addiction","confidence","depression","fail","failure","failures","future","growing","identity","identity-crisis","image","mirror","past","purpose","self-harm","self-helm","self-image","self-improvement","to-write-love-on-her-arms","twloha"],"id":4412,"author_id":"Ricky+Maye"},{"text":"Never feel this bad again. Never come back to this place, where only a knife will do. Live a gentle and kind life. Don't do things that make you want to hurt yourself. Whatever you do, every day, remember this - then steer away from here.","author":"Caitlin Moran","tags":["recovery","self-harm"],"id":15605,"author_id":"Caitlin+Moran"},{"text":"We both knew what it was to hurt our bodies. It's a strange reason to bond with someone, but I think we both needed to feel understood, and, even though we couldn't love ourselves, we could love each other.","author":"Melissa C. Water","tags":["bulimia","cutting","eating-disorder","lady-injury","melissa-c-water","memoir","self-harm","self-injury"],"id":16791,"author_id":"Melissa+C.+Water"},{"text":"I wonder if it's meant to be punishment for something one can't forgive oneself for. Or an external expression, Lady Queen, of an internal pain? Or perhaps it's a way to realise that you actually do want to stay alive.","author":"Kristin Cashore","tags":["cutting","pain","self-harm"],"id":21452,"author_id":"Kristin+Cashore"},{"text":"And she knows then that she was right about her brother, that it takes an unbelievable strength to feel this kind of grief, and she doesn't know if she can handle it, because it really hurts, hurts her more than the razor ever could.","author":"Julia Hoban","tags":["fiction","grief","self-harm"],"id":22790,"author_id":"Julia+Hoban"},{"text":"I lay on my floor crying again… shaking. Searching for inner strength and coming up empty. My eyes burned and my mouth was dry as I sucked on air that seemed to keep getting thicker and harder to breathe. I tried to leave again, but ended up leaning my forehead against the door, feeling defeated and wishing the Grim Reaper would come for me in all his silky, black glory.","author":"Nathan Daniels","tags":["agoraphobia","anxiety","non-fiction","self-harm","suicide"],"id":24215,"author_id":"Nathan+Daniels"},{"text":"Evolution has taught them that pointless harm will ultimately harm themselves.","author":"Carl Zimmer","tags":["evolution","pointless-harm","science","self-harm"],"id":24331,"author_id":"Carl+Zimmer"},{"text":"How can she explain to him that every tear takes her further and further away from the box of razors that lies between them. How can she explain that she is terrified of such a thing happening. That although she thought she wanted freedom from her implements, she doesn't know if she can handle what she's experiencing now. That she wants to know that she is still in charge of her grief. That her blades have always done her bidding.","author":"Julia Hoban","tags":["fiction","grief","self-harm"],"id":26185,"author_id":"Julia+Hoban"},{"text":"With DID patients, if they feel hostility or aggression they take it out on themselves with self-harm... They’re self-destructive and repeatedly suicidal, more so than any other psychological disorder. So that's what's typical – not this wild aggression, or stalking women [or robbery].- Dr Bethany Brand, on Billy Milligan and Multiple Personality Disorder (DID).","author":"Bethany L. Brand","tags":["billy-milligan","dissociative-identity-disorder","insanity","mental-disorder","mental-illness","misconception","misrepresentation","multiple-personalities","multiple-personality-disorder","self-harm","self-injury","split-personality","stereotypes","stigma","suicidal","suicidality","suicide","the-crowded-room"],"id":28670,"author_id":"Bethany+L.+Brand"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":70,"pages":7,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}