{"quotes":[{"text":"Every few minutes or so I would remember the look from the man who had wanted fifty cents, and I'd look at that framed memory hanging in myself and it meant I was here, back in this sick city, but in other ways I was not here at all and anyone who looked closely could see that I had nothing to give, that I was a junk drawer, a collection of things that may or may not have had a use.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","disconnected","mental-illness","metaphor","nobody-is-ever-missing","nothing-to-give","removed"],"id":8737,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"Lately, I couldn't remember those years, as if childhood was a movie I'd only seen the previews to.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","childhood","memory","nobody-is-ever-missing","repressed-memories","simile"],"id":27214,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"I wondered for a moment if he was trying to get me to join a cult, but I realized it was just his youth talking, not a dogma.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","humor","nobody-is-ever-missing","youth"],"id":53005,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"My body felt like tangled rubber bands and dried-out pens and sticky paper clips, like the contents of a drawer where you put the things you don't have anywhere else to put, and I knew that the mind and body are connected, and that my bodily sensations were just messages from my mind, but I just wished there was a box or a drawer or a hole in the ground where I could put all this, all this mind and body stuff that I didn't know what else to do with.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["body","catherine-lacey","escape","mind","nobody-is-ever-missing","simile"],"id":128268,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"You will never be missing to yourself and all you can do is delay, delay, delay and the delaying must be good enough for you and you must find a way to be fine with the delay because it is your whole life and the minute you really go missing is the minute you can no longer miss.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","life","metaphor","missing","nobody-is-ever-missing"],"id":155008,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"I hiked up a path and into the woods, thinking about what I should be thinking about and almost having a real feeling—a feeling like, this is really sad, this is a sad place to be, a sad part of my life, maybe just a sad life. The woods were not particularly beautiful. I was not impressed by the trees.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","description","feelings","nature","nobody-is-ever-missing","reflection","sad","unimpressed"],"id":191992,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"Maybe misery begins everywhere.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","misery","nobody-is-ever-missing"],"id":200396,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"I couldn't blame anyone for what was in me, because I am, like everyone, populated entirely by myself.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","identity","nobody-is-ever-missing"],"id":212139,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"Though I knew I had the potential to do this locked in me like a poisonous pet snake, I knew I didn't have the part of a person you must have to turn that potential kinetic, to be the kind of person who can let their awful plow.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["awful","catherine-lacey","nobody-is-ever-missing","potential"],"id":217911,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"},{"text":"I thought I detected a bit of wonder in his voice, that he'd like to become part of a story, any story.","author":"Catherine Lacey","tags":["catherine-lacey","nobody-is-ever-missing","story"],"id":225256,"author_id":"Catherine+Lacey"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":20,"pages":2,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}