{"quotes":[{"text":"I couldn’t trust my own emotions. Which emotional reactions were justified, if any? And which ones were tainted by the mental illness of BPD? I found myself fiercely guarding and limiting my emotional reactions, chastising myself for possible distortions and motivations. People who had known me years ago would barely recognize me now. I had become quiet and withdrawn in social settings, no longer the life of the party. After all, how could I know if my boisterous humor were spontaneous or just a borderline desire to be the center of attention? I could no longer trust any of my heart felt beliefs and opinions on politics, religion, or life. The debate queen had withered. I found myself looking at every single side of an issue unable to come to any conclusions for fear they might be tainted. My lifelong ability to be assertive had turned into a constant state of passivity.","author":"Rachel Reiland","tags":["borderline","borderline-personality-disorder","bpd","diagnosis","emotional-pain","mental-disorder","mental-illness","self-blame","self-doubt"],"id":11583,"author_id":"Rachel+Reiland"},{"text":"Her parents, she said, has put a pinball machine inside her head when she was five years old. The red balls told her when she should laugh, the blue ones when she should be silent and keep away from other people; the green balls told her that she should start multiplying by three. Every few days a silver ball would make its way through the pins of the machine. At this point her head turned and she stared at me; I assumed she was checking to see if I was still listening. I was, of course. How could one not? The whole thing was bizarre but riveting. I asked her, What does the silver ball mean? She looked at me intently, and then everything went dead in her eyes. She stared off into space, caught up in some internal world. I never found out what the silver ball meant.","author":"Kay Redfield Jamison","tags":["bipolar","bipolar-disorder","depression","mania","manic","manic-depression","mental-disorder","mental-illness","psychology","psychopathology"],"id":15492,"author_id":"Kay+Redfield+Jamison"},{"text":"Patients with complex trauma may at times develop extreme reactions to something the therapist has said or not said, done or not done. It is wise to anticipate this in advance, and perhaps to note this anticipation in initial communications with the patient. For example, one may say something like, 'It is likely in our work together, there will be a time or times when you will feel angry with me, disappointed with me, or that I have failed you. We should except this and not be surprised if and when it happens, which it probably will.' It is also vital to emphasize to the patient that despite the diagnosis and experience of dividedness, the whole person is responsible and will be held responsible for the acts of any part. P174.","author":"Elizabeth F. Howell","tags":["complex-ptsd","dissociative-identity-disorder","mental-disorder","responsibility","responsible","system-responsibility","trauma-therapy","traumatized"],"id":18581,"author_id":"Elizabeth+F.+Howell"},{"text":"Dropping in and out of your own life (for psychotic breaks, or treatment in a hospital) isn’t like getting off a train at one stop and later getting back on at another. Even if you can get back on (and the odds are not in your favor), you’re lonely there. The people you boarded with originally are far, far ahead of you, and now you’re stuck playing catch-up.","author":"Elyn R. Saks","tags":["anxiety","depression","eating-disorder","life","mental-disorder","mental-illness","relationships","treatment"],"id":26582,"author_id":"Elyn+R.+Saks"},{"text":"With DID patients, if they feel hostility or aggression they take it out on themselves with self-harm... They’re self-destructive and repeatedly suicidal, more so than any other psychological disorder. So that's what's typical – not this wild aggression, or stalking women [or robbery].- Dr Bethany Brand, on Billy Milligan and Multiple Personality Disorder (DID).","author":"Bethany L. Brand","tags":["billy-milligan","dissociative-identity-disorder","insanity","mental-disorder","mental-illness","misconception","misrepresentation","multiple-personalities","multiple-personality-disorder","self-harm","self-injury","split-personality","stereotypes","stigma","suicidal","suicidality","suicide","the-crowded-room"],"id":28670,"author_id":"Bethany+L.+Brand"},{"text":"For all the normal people who make fun of the mentally ill it's spelled K.A.R.M.A. And it's pronounced your days coming, Bitch!","author":"Stanley Victor Paskavich","tags":["bipolar","mental-disorder","mental-illness","psychology","ptsd"],"id":43386,"author_id":"Stanley+Victor+Paskavich"},{"text":"The distinction between diseases of 'brain' and 'mind,' between 'neurological' problems and 'psychological' or 'psychiatric' ones, is an unfortunate cultural inheritance that permeates society and medicine. It reflects a basic ignorance of the relation between brain and mind. Diseases of the brain are seen as tragedies visited on people who cannot be blamed for their condition, while diseases of the mind, especially those that affect conduct and emotion, are seen as social inconveniences for which sufferers have much to answer. Individuals are to be blamed for their character flaws, defective emotional modulation, and so on; lack of willpower is supposed to be the primary problem.","author":"António R. Damásio","tags":["brain","character","character-flaws","mental-disorder","mental-health","mental-illness","mind","neurological","psychiatric","psychological"],"id":71513,"author_id":"Ant%C3%B3nio+R.+Dam%C3%A1sio"},{"text":"You're not to achieve anything, on the contrary you are to drop whatever you have accumulated over ages and its difficult mind you, not that its part of you, but YOU have owned this mental clutter unconsciously. The moment you unburden yourself, for the first time YOU ARE!, never before.","author":"Ramana Pemmaraju","tags":["mental-disorder","mental-noise","mindfulness","psychology","tricks"],"id":72303,"author_id":"Ramana+Pemmaraju"},{"text":"Results of two independent factor analyses of the survey responses of more than 2000 English and American citizens parallel these findings (19,33):- fear and exclusion: persons with severe mental illness should be feared and, therefore, be kept out of most communities;- authoritarianism: persons with severe mental illness are irresponsible, so life decisions should be made by others;- benevolence: persons with severe mental illness are childlike and need to be cared for.'World Psychiatry. 2002 Feb; 1(1): 16–20.PMCID: PMC1489832Understanding the impact of stigma on people with mental illnessPATRICK W CORRIGAN and AMY C WATSON.","author":"Patrick W. Corrigan","tags":["itarianism","benevolence","bias","blame","dangerousness","discrimination","exclusion","fear","mental-disorder","mental-health","mental-health-stigma","mental-illness","prejudice","rejection","severe-mental-illness","stigma"],"id":74939,"author_id":"Patrick+W.+Corrigan"},{"text":"She fails to see who I am, even, for her eyes do not, will not, take me in. Instead they transmit a powerful message. She is like a billboard flashing, starkly: 'Keep Out'.","author":"Carol Lee","tags":["emotional-disengagement","emotional-distance","ignoring-people","isolation","mental-disorder","mental-illness","withdrawn"],"id":78726,"author_id":"Carol+Lee"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":79,"pages":8,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}