{"quotes":[{"text":"Instead of being a gift that separates us from the animals, free will has become my gaoler. Junkies are the ultimate outsider, not only are we outside of society: we are outside of nature. I spit, turn, and wander towards the beach. Heroin gave me wings but took away the sky.","author":"Drew Gates","tags":["addiction","drugs","heroin"],"id":10996,"author_id":"Drew+Gates"},{"text":"The fear of the drugs running out is managable-the fear of time running down isn't.","author":"Ann Marlowe","tags":["addiction-recovery","drug-addiction","drugs","heroin","mental-illness","recovery"],"id":22316,"author_id":"Ann+Marlowe"},{"text":"No more junk talk, no more lies. No more mornings in the hospital getting bad blood drained out of me. No more doctors trying to analyse what makes me a drug addict. No more futile attempts at trying to control my heroin use. No more defending myself when I know I am practically indefensible. No more police using me as practice. No more ODs, no more losses. No more trying to take an intellectual position on my heroin addiction when it takes more than it gives. No more dope-sick mornings, no more slow suicide, no more pain without end.No more AA. No more NA. No more mind control. No more being a victim, no more looking for reasons in childhood, in God in anything but what exists in HERE. No more admitting I am powerless. Down the dusty Los Angeles sidewalks, down the urine stained London back alleys … there goes the connection fading into the crowd like a 1960’s Polaroid.“Business…?”“Whachoo need…?”“Chiva…?","author":"Tony O'Neill","tags":["drugs","heroin"],"id":35844,"author_id":"Tony+O%27Neill"},{"text":"It seems to me now that the plain state of being human is dramatic enough for anyone you don't need to be a heroin addict or a performance poet to experience extremity. You just have to love someone. ","author":"Nick Hornby","tags":["heroin","humanity","love","poetry"],"id":39805,"author_id":"Nick+Hornby"},{"text":"Poverty of young men alone behind thestairways, who practicealchemy inside bottle caps, who knowthe altruism of a last syringe.","author":"Jim Carroll","tags":["drugs","heroin","in-midtown-again","needles","poetry","sharing"],"id":53021,"author_id":"Jim+Carroll"},{"text":"After I binged last night -or was it tonight - I was convinced yet again that there were people coming to get me. It was more than just shadows and voices, more than just fantasies....It was real, and I was scared to my core.My bones were shaking...M heart was pounding...I thought I was going to explode. I'm glad I have you to talk to, to write this down. I tried to keep it all together, but then I gave in to the manes and became one with my insanity.","author":"Nikki Sixx","tags":["addiction","drugs","heroin","real-life","recovering-addict","suffering"],"id":65442,"author_id":"Nikki+Sixx"},{"text":"Sitting cross-legged on her bed, I watch her take out her gear. She’s been smoking so much the room stinks of it. Over the last few weeks, I’ve seen her do it so often I’ve resisted the urge. It’s surreal, like I’m watching me from outside my body. My willpower is fragile at the best of times, but my resolve is always weaker in the evening.I feel a dread and a revulsion for what I’m about to do, but there’s a stronger feeling, an unutterable longing. I crack.‘Give us a line,’ I say.","author":"Christine Lewry","tags":["addiction","heroin","parenting-teens","true-stories","true-stories-drugs","ya"],"id":71966,"author_id":"Christine+Lewry"},{"text":"I'd felt the pop of the needle sliding into my veins, like a fang into flesh. I'd been enveloped in the golden haze where nothing is wrong even when everything is falling apart. A dance with a hypodermic fiend, my hands in the claws of a vulture.","author":"Taylor Rhodes","tags":["drug-use","fear","heroin","recklessness","regret","sixteenth-notes","taylor-rhodes"],"id":77421,"author_id":"Taylor+Rhodes"},{"text":"It was what she imagined doing heroin would be like: terrible for you but impossible to resist.","author":"Libby Schmais","tags":["heroin","imagination"],"id":99838,"author_id":"Libby+Schmais"},{"text":"Beating heroin is child's play compared to beating your childhood.","author":"Stephen King","tags":["childhood","heroin"],"id":120767,"author_id":"Stephen+King"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":51,"pages":6,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}