{"quotes":[{"text":"I don't even know how long she sobs. Time ceases to pass, and she cries, cries, cries. Clutches me and makes these sounds of a soul being ripped in two, the grief so long denied taking its toll. Fermented grief is far more potent.","author":"Jasinda Wilder","tags":["colton","cries","falling","falling-into-you","grief","heartbreaking","jasinda-wilder","nell","sobs","soul"],"id":2090,"author_id":"Jasinda+Wilder"},{"text":"It wasn't supposed to. It was just supposed to stop you from hurting yourself.” “It helps—” “No it doesn't. It just pushes it away temporarily. Just like the booze.” “But I need—” “You need to let yourself feel. Feel it, own it. Then move on.” “You make it sound so easy.” Bitterness drips from each syllable. “It’s not. It’s the fucking hardest thing a person can do.” I smooth a damp strand out of her face and away from my mouth. “It’s the hardest fucking thing. It’s why we drink and do drugs and fight. It’s why I play music and build engines.","author":"Jasinda Wilder","tags":["bitterness","colton","cope","coping","cutting","drinking","falling","falling-into-you","feel","feeling","fighting","grief","hurting","jasinda-wilder","music","nell","relief","words"],"id":16597,"author_id":"Jasinda+Wilder"},{"text":"I also know I'm not going to stay away. I'm going to grab onto her and let myself get cut. I'm good at pain. I'm good at bleeding, emotionally and physically.","author":"Jasinda Wilder","tags":["coping","cut","cutting","emotions","falling","falling-into-you","jasinda-wilder","pain"],"id":48380,"author_id":"Jasinda+Wilder"},{"text":"If it's me who loves you, you'll know, as I will tell it you in my own words.","author":"Auliq Ice","tags":["dating","falling-in-love","falling-into-you","internet-dating","love","love","lovers-love-story"],"id":57006,"author_id":"Auliq+Ice"},{"text":"Let…it…go,” he whispers, his voice a fierce, harsh sound in my hair. “No. No!” The last word is screamed. “You have to. You can’t bleed it out. You can’t keep pretending, drinking it down.","author":"Jasinda Wilder","tags":["bleed","colton","cut","cutting","drinking","falling","falling-into-you","favorite","favourite","grief","jasinda-wilder","let-it-go","nell","pain","sorrow"],"id":102393,"author_id":"Jasinda+Wilder"},{"text":"But we have to learn to be free. We have to, Nell. Doesn't mean happy all the time, or okay all the time. It’s okay not to be okay. I told you that, but I'm relearning it myself. But not being okay doesn't mean you stop living.","author":"Jasinda Wilder","tags":["colton","falling","falling-into-you","free","happy","jasinda-wilder","life","living","nell","okay","real","relearning"],"id":109794,"author_id":"Jasinda+Wilder"},{"text":"Love notes to my husband, Jeremiah Nii Mama Akita; I will always love you. I am grateful for a blessed life shared with you.","author":"Lailah Gifty Akita","tags":["blessed-event","blessed-life","blessing","blessing-of-the-lord","blessings","blessings-in-disguise","falling-in-love","falling-in-love","falling-into-you","grateful","grateful-for-food","grateful-heart","grateful-outlook","grateful-soul","gratefulness","gratitude","husband","husband-and-wife","husband-and-wife-relationship","husband","husband-wife-problem-solution","husbands-and-wives","love","love-at-first-sight","love","love","wife"],"id":115608,"author_id":"Lailah+Gifty+Akita"},{"text":"I respect the hell out of her for how hard she’s working to be okay. I just wish she’d let me show her how to let go, how to let herself hurt. I want to take her pain.","author":"Jasinda Wilder","tags":["colton","falling","falling-into-you","grief","hurt","jasinda-wilder","nell","pain","respect","strength"],"id":117384,"author_id":"Jasinda+Wilder"},{"text":"It's hard to decide matters of the heart, especially when Self-love is rooted in our decisions. You'll need to balance your needs with the people you love in order to avoid hurting others.","author":"Auliq Ice","tags":["dating","decisions","falling-in-love","falling-into-you","internet-dating","love-declaration","love-devotion-power","marriage"],"id":130628,"author_id":"Auliq+Ice"},{"text":"It’s not okay,” I tell her. This gets her attention; it’s not what she was expecting. “You don’t have to be okay.” “What do you want from me?” Her voice is ragged, desperate. “I want you to let yourself be broken. Let yourself hurt.” She shakes her head again. “I can’t. If I let it out, it’ll never stop.” “Yes, it will.","author":"Jasinda Wilder","tags":["broken","colton","desperate","falling","falling-into-you","fear","grief","hurt","hurting","jasinda-wilder","nell","okay","pain","sadness","suffereing"],"id":134742,"author_id":"Jasinda+Wilder"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":26,"pages":3,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}