{"quotes":[{"text":"The scabs feel like I have a message on my arm. Something that needs to be read, urgently, by someone. It was only years later that I realized the person I had written that message to- the person who wasn't listening- was me. I was the one who should have been staring at that arm, and working out what the red hieroglyphics meant. Had I translated them, I would have realized those red lines read: 'Never feel this bad again. Never come back to this place, where only a knife will do. Live a gentle and kind life. Don't do things that make you want to hurt yourself. Whatever you do, every day, remember this- then steer away from here.","author":"Caitlin Moran","tags":["cutting","depression","self-harm","self-mutilation"],"id":412,"author_id":"Caitlin+Moran"},{"text":"The first time she carved something into her skin, she used the sharp tip of an X-Acto knife. She lifted up her shirt to show me after the cuts had scabbed over. She had scrawled F*** YOU on her stomach. I stood quiet for a moment, feeling the breath get knocked out of me. I should have grabbed her arm and taken her straight to the nurse's office, into that small room with two cots covered in paper sheets and the sweet, stale medicinal. ","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["cutting","friends"],"id":9596,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"It wasn't supposed to. It was just supposed to stop you from hurting yourself.” “It helps—” “No it doesn't. It just pushes it away temporarily. Just like the booze.” “But I need—” “You need to let yourself feel. Feel it, own it. Then move on.” “You make it sound so easy.” Bitterness drips from each syllable. “It’s not. It’s the fucking hardest thing a person can do.” I smooth a damp strand out of her face and away from my mouth. “It’s the hardest fucking thing. It’s why we drink and do drugs and fight. It’s why I play music and build engines.","author":"Jasinda Wilder","tags":["bitterness","colton","cope","coping","cutting","drinking","falling","falling-into-you","feel","feeling","fighting","grief","hurting","jasinda-wilder","music","nell","relief","words"],"id":16597,"author_id":"Jasinda+Wilder"},{"text":"We both knew what it was to hurt our bodies. It's a strange reason to bond with someone, but I think we both needed to feel understood, and, even though we couldn't love ourselves, we could love each other.","author":"Melissa C. Water","tags":["bulimia","cutting","eating-disorder","lady-injury","melissa-c-water","memoir","self-harm","self-injury"],"id":16791,"author_id":"Melissa+C.+Water"},{"text":"The problem with doing cutting edge research is that the masses think that you are nuts!","author":"Steven Magee","tags":["cutting","doing","edge","masses","nuts","problem","research","think"],"id":17557,"author_id":"Steven+Magee"},{"text":"I wonder if it's meant to be punishment for something one can't forgive oneself for. Or an external expression, Lady Queen, of an internal pain? Or perhaps it's a way to realise that you actually do want to stay alive.","author":"Kristin Cashore","tags":["cutting","pain","self-harm"],"id":21452,"author_id":"Kristin+Cashore"},{"text":"The pain I feel from the razor blade doesn’t even come close to what I’m feeling inside so it’s useless because the equation is messed up: because razor blade pain should be equal to or greater than the heartache, that’s just CUTTING 101. And if it’s not—well you’re fucked, my friend. It was nice knowing you, but you know what time it is?It’s time to let to let the darkness in.Quid pro quo and all that.It’s time to find something more agonizing than the touch of the blade.","author":"Kady Hunt","tags":["cutting","cutting-psychology-self-harm","depression","depression","psychology","suicide","suicide-thoughts","suicides"],"id":22137,"author_id":"Kady+Hunt"},{"text":"Every heart needs a cutting part sharper than a blade to stab agony.","author":"Munia Khan","tags":["agony","blade","cutting","dark","every","heart","heartache","need","needs","pain","painful","painful-love","part","sharp","sharper","spiritual","spiritual","spirituality","stab"],"id":29144,"author_id":"Munia+Khan"},{"text":"I hurt myself,” Syren bit out. “I make myself bleed and it feels good. It eases the pressure inside me, but it never lasts for long.” His lips trembled. “Before I slept in your bed, I’d never had a full night’s sleep. Before I crawled into your arms I’d never been safe.” He shuffled forward. “You give me that. You hold that power and you can take it away.","author":"Avril Ashton","tags":["cutting","fear","kane-ashby","self-harm","si","syren-rua"],"id":38505,"author_id":"Avril+Ashton"},{"text":"I also know I'm not going to stay away. I'm going to grab onto her and let myself get cut. I'm good at pain. I'm good at bleeding, emotionally and physically.","author":"Jasinda Wilder","tags":["coping","cut","cutting","emotions","falling","falling-into-you","jasinda-wilder","pain"],"id":48380,"author_id":"Jasinda+Wilder"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":40,"pages":4,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}