Arin, you’re not listening. You’re not thinking clearly.”“You’re right. I haven’t been thinking clearly, not for a long time. But I understand now.” Arin pushed his tiles away. His winning hand scattered out of line. “You have changed, Kestrel. I don’t know who you are anymore. And I don’t want to.
— Marie RutkoskiLittle Fists, what's wrong?
— Marie RutkoskiArin. I've wanted to do this for a long time.'Her words silenced him, steadied him.Antecipation lifted within her like the fragance of a garden under the rain. She sat at the piano, touching the keys. 'Ready?'He smiled. 'Play.
— Marie RutkoskiShe'd betrayed her country because she'd believed it was the right thing to do. Yet would she have done this, if not for Arin?He knew none of it. Had never asked for it. Kestrel had made her own choices. It was unfair to blame him.But she wanted to.
— Marie RutkoskiIt dropped ice to the bottom of his stomach. He thought of the ruined bodies he'd seen, including the ones he himself had ruined. He realized that he had somehow expected that he'd never have to think again about the way people damage other people. The night of the invasion. Kestrel's back. His own. Roshar's scarred face. His own.
— Marie RutkoskiYet he understood that there are some things you feel and others that you choose to feel, and that the choice doesn't make the feeling less valid.
— Marie RutkoskiShe said, I'm going to miss you when you when I wake up.Don't wake up, he answered.But he did.Kestrel, beside him on the grass, said. 'Did I wake you? I didn't mean to.'It took him a velvety moment to understand that this was real. The air was quiet. An insect beat it's clear wings. She brushed hair from his brow. Now he was very awake.'You were sleeping so sweetly,' she said.'Dreaming' He touched her tender mouth.'About what?'Come closer, and I will tell you.'But he forgot. He kissed her, and became lost in the exquisite sensation of his skin becoming too tight for his body. He murmured other things instead. A secret, a want, a promise. A story, in its own way.She curled her fingers into the green earth.
— Marie RutkoskiShe said, I'm going to miss you when you when I wake up.Don't wake up, he answered.But he did.Kestrel, beside him on the grass, said. 'Did I wake you? I didn't mean to.
— Marie RutkoskiHe told himself a story. Not at first. At first, there wasn’t time for thoughts that came in the shape of words. His head was blessedly empty of stories then. War was coming. It was upon him. Arin had been born in the year of the god of death, and he was finally glad of it. He surrendered himself to his god, who smiled and came close. Stories will get you killed, he murmured in Arin’s ear. Now, you just listen. Listen to me.
— Marie RutkoskiPeople of the hundred,' he said, using an ancient Herrani phrase Arin was surprised he knew, 'who leads you?'So many cried Arin's name that it no longer sounded like his name.
— Marie Rutkoski