{"quotes":[{"text":"Anxiety is the monster that resides within.","author":"Karon Waddell","tags":["anxiety","anxiety-attack","anxiety-disorders","mental-disorders","mental-health","mental-health-stigma"],"id":14218,"author_id":"Karon+Waddell"},{"text":"You want to be there for me but an anxiety attack is a solitary activity.","author":"R. Y.S. Perez","tags":["anxiety","anxiety-disorders","mental-health","mental-illness"],"id":25604,"author_id":"R.+Y.S.+Perez"},{"text":"I am stupid, am I not? What more can I want? If you ask them who is brave--who is true--who is just--who is it they would trust with their lives?--they would say, Tuan Jim. And yet they can never know the real, real truth....","author":"Joseph Conrad","tags":["anxiety","anxiety-disorders","burden","cowardly","emotional-wounds","guilty-conscience","haunted","haunting","hypocrisy","monster-under-the-bed","monsters-of-men","ptsd","secret","self-hate","sinful-nature","why-we-need-jesus","wounded-souls","wounds-to-the-heart"],"id":27929,"author_id":"Joseph+Conrad"},{"text":"They (...) call what I have an invisible illness, but I often wonder if they're really looking. Beyond the science stuff. It doesn't bleed or swell, itch or crack, but I see it, right there on my face. It's like decay, this icky green colour, as if my life were being filmed through a grey filter. I lack light, am an entire surface area that the sun can't touch.","author":"Louise Gornall","tags":["anxiety-disorders","mental-health"],"id":29058,"author_id":"Louise+Gornall"},{"text":"Suicide and mental health problems have no boundaries.","author":"Santosh Kalwar","tags":["anxiety-disorders","depression","mental-health","problems","stress","suicide"],"id":43839,"author_id":"Santosh+Kalwar"},{"text":"The fear, though, is unassailable. The dark balls of dread pinball through my brain. This is what anxiety does to a brain, I know that. A barrage of intrusive, unwanted, and distressing thoughts that the person thinking them can't turn them off no matter how hard they try...","author":"Lauren Miller","tags":["anxiety","anxiety-disorders","anxiety","mental-health"],"id":72714,"author_id":"Lauren+Miller"},{"text":"Everything was numbered: the lenses, the painterly sky, the milligrams of my panic pills. I had prescription eyes that allowed me to see better, and prescription panic pills that allowed me to play blind.","author":"Jalina Mhyana","tags":["anxiety-disorders","blindness","denial","medication","vision"],"id":188582,"author_id":"Jalina+Mhyana"},{"text":"Cath couldn't control whether she saw Levi on campus. But she could worry about it, and as long as she was worrying about it, it probably wasn't going to happen. Like some sort of anxiety vaccine. Like watching a pot to make sure it never boiled.","author":"Rainbow Rowell","tags":["anxiety","anxiety-disorders"],"id":198069,"author_id":"Rainbow+Rowell"},{"text":"A disability that is not apparent in the person’s appearance is no less intrusive, no less painful, no less disturbing than one that can be spotted across the room. And, yet, many people fail to respect the tremendous impact that the invisible disability has on the human enduring it.","author":"Sahar Abdulaziz","tags":["anxiety-disorders","depression","hidden-diseases"],"id":209589,"author_id":"Sahar+Abdulaziz"},{"text":"Do you know that feeling? When everything you do seems like a struggle. Where you dont wanna leave the house because you know everyone is judging you. Where you cant even ask for directions in fear that they critise you. Where everyone always seems to be picking out your flaws. That feeling where you feel so damn sick for no reason.Do you know that feeling where you look in the mirror and completly hate what you see. When you grab handfuls and handfuls of fat and just want to cut it all off. That feeling when you see other beautiful girls and just wish you looked like them. When you compare yourself to everyone you meet. When you realise why no one ever showed intrest in you. That feeling where you become so self conscious you dont even turn up at school. That feeling when you feel so disappointed in who you are and everything you have become. That feeling when every bite makes you wanna be sick. When hunger is more satifying that food. The feeling of failure when you eat a meal. Do you know that feeling when you cant run as far as your class. Fear knowing that everyone thinks of you as the'Unfit FAT BITCH' That feeling when you just wanna let it all out but you dont wanna look weak. The fear you have in class when you dont understand something but your too afraid to ask for help. The feeling of being to ashamed to stand up for yourself.  Do you know the feeling when your deepest fear becomes a reality. Fear that you will NEVER be good enough. When you feel as if you deserve all the pain you give yourself. When you finally understand why everyone hates you. FINALLY realising the harsh truth. Understanding that every cut, every burn, every bruise you have even given yourself, you deserved. In fact you deserved worse. That feeling when you believe you deserve constant and brutal pain. Do you know what it feels like to just want to give up. When you just want all the pain to end but you want it to continue? Or am I just insane.","author":"Anonymous.","tags":["anxiety-disorders","depression","depression","depression-recovery","school","self-harm","self-hate","teenagers"],"id":226476,"author_id":"Anonymous."}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":20,"pages":2,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}