{"quotes":[{"text":"If you put the wrong foods in your body, you are contaminated and dirty and your stomach swells. Then the voice says, Why did you do that? Don't you know better? Ugly and wicked, you are disgusting to me.","author":"Bethany Pierce","tags":["anorexia","anorexic","bulimia","bulimic","depression","eating-disorder","eating-disorders","ed","mental-illness","ocd"],"id":2326,"author_id":"Bethany+Pierce"},{"text":"Find YOUR Balance.","author":"Kayla Rose Kotecki","tags":["anorexia","bikini-competitions","bikini-contest","bingeing","body-image","body-positive","bodybuilding","bulimia","clean-eating","cleansing","detox","dieting","diets-don-t-work","eat-clean","eating-clean","eating-disorder-recovery","eating-disorders","fasting","food-freedom","fruitarian","mental-health","non-fiction","orthorexia","purging","raw-food","raw-vegan","starvation"],"id":4570,"author_id":"Kayla+Rose+Kotecki"},{"text":"Fat bitch,' Kessa murmured as the door scraped closed behind Mrs. Stone.'She meant well, Francesca. And you see, everyone thinks you're too thin.'Since when is Mrs. Stone an authority on appearance. I've heard you say a thousand times that she looks like an old hooker.'I never said anything of the sort. What I said was that she wears too much makeup and her clothes are indiscreet.'Which means she looks like an old hooker. Well, if that's the way a woman is supposed to look, I'd rather be too skinny.' Kessa felt a flash of pleasure at the argument. Just let her mother try to push food into her now.","author":"Steven Levenkron","tags":["anorexia","argument","bitch","eating-disorder","fat","fight","hooker"],"id":17577,"author_id":"Steven+Levenkron"},{"text":"More often than not, expecting to lose weight without first losing the diet that made the weight loss necessary is like expecting a pig to be spotless after hosing it down while it was still rolling in mud.","author":"Mokokoma Mokhonoana","tags":["adage","adages","africa","african","anorexia","anorexic","aphorism","aphorisms","appetite","axiom","axioms","bmi","body-fat","body-mass-index","cheat-day","cheat-days","clean","deep","dictum","dictums","diet","dietician","dieticians","dietitian","dietitians","epigram","epigrams","exercise","exercises","fat","fatty","food","funny","gnome","gnomes","gym","gymnasium","health","healthy","hose","humor","humorous","humour","ingredient","ingredients","insightful","lean","lose-weight","made-me-think","make-you-think","maxim","maxims","mud","muscles","muscular","necessary","necessity","obese","obesity","overeat","overeater","overeating","overweight","philosopher","pig","pigs","profound","proverb","proverbs","provoke-thought","quotation","quotations","quote","of-the-day","quotes","recipe","recipes","roll","rolling","salad","salads","satire","satirical","saying","sayings","shred","shredded","skinny","south-africa","south-african","spotless","sugar","sugary","thought-provoking","thoughtful","underweight","watch-what-you-eat","weight","weight-loss","weight-to-height","weightlifter","weightlifting","workout"],"id":45938,"author_id":"Mokokoma+Mokhonoana"},{"text":"At the lip of a cliff, I look out over Lake Superior, through the bare branches of birches and the snow-covered branches of aspens and pines. A hard wind blows snow up out of a cavern and over my face. I know this place, I know its seasons - I have hiked these mountains in the summer and walked these winding pathways in the explosion of colour that is a northern fall. And now, the temperature drops well below zero and the deadly cold lake rages below, I feel the stirrings of faith that here, in this place, in my heart, spring will come again.But first the winter must be waited out. And that waiting has worth.","author":"Marya Hornbacher","tags":["addiction","alcoholic","anorexia","bulimia","eating-disorder","mental-illness","recovery","spirituality"],"id":48848,"author_id":"Marya+Hornbacher"},{"text":"One weekend it rained for 48 hours without stopping. The rain beat like bony fingers against the window panes. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Fungus was growing on the walls. I polished off a bottle of gin sitting huddled over the two-bar electric fire and wrote a poem, one of the few that has lasted through the moves and the years. It is called 'Where Can I Go?'If this is not the place where tears are understood where do I go to cry? If this is not the place where my spirits can take wing where do I go to fly?If this is not the place where my feelings can be heard where do I go to speak? If this is not the place where you’ll accept me as I am where can I go to be me? If this is not the place where I can try and learn and grow where can I go to laugh and cry?","author":"Alice Jamieson","tags":["acceptance","alcoholic","alcoholism","anoretic","anorexia","anorexic","cry","depression","learn","mental-health","poem","rejection","sadness"],"id":90278,"author_id":"Alice+Jamieson"},{"text":"But I know that if I don't at least try, I'll stay the way I am till it kills me. Till I kill me, I mean. I never really accept that that's what I'm doing - I say it, but I don't believe it.","author":"Deborah Hautzig","tags":["anorexia","bulimia","eating-disorder","ednos","mental-illness"],"id":92203,"author_id":"Deborah+Hautzig"},{"text":"Kessa ran her fingers over her stomach. Flat. But was it flat enough? Not quite. She still had some way to go. Just to be safe, she told herself. Still, it was nice the way her pelvic bones rose like sharp hills on either side of her stomach. I love bones. Bones are beautiful.","author":"Steven Levenkron","tags":["anorexia","beautiful","bones","eating-disorder","mental-illness","skinny","thin"],"id":92204,"author_id":"Steven+Levenkron"},{"text":"I look back on my life the way one watches a badly scripted action flick, sitting at the edge of the seat, bursting out, 'No, no, don't open that door! The bad guy is in there and he'll grab you and put his hand over your mouth and tie you up and then you'll miss the train and everything will fall apart!' Except there is no bad guy in this tale. The person who jumped through the door and grabbed me and tied me up was, unfortunately, me. My double image, the evil skinny chick who hisses, Don't eat. I'm not going to let you eat. I'll let you go as soon as you're thin, I swear I will. Everything will be okay when you're thin.","author":"Marya Hornbacher","tags":["anorexia","bulimia","depression","eating-disorders","mental-illness"],"id":96253,"author_id":"Marya+Hornbacher"},{"text":"I didn't realize there was a ranking.' I said. 'Sadie frowned. 'What do you mean?' 'A ranking,' I said. 'You know, what's crazier than what.' 'Oh, sure there is,' Sadie said. She sat back in her chair. 'First you have your generic depressives. They're a dime a dozen and usually pretty boring. Then you've got the bulimics and the anorexics. They're slightly more interesting, although usually they're just girls with nothing better to do. Then you start getting into the good stuff: the arsonists, the schizophrenics, the manic-depressives. You can never quite tell what those will do. And then you've got the junkies. They're completely tragic, because chances are they're just going to go right back on the stuff when they're out of here.' 'So junkies are at the top of the crazy chain,' I said. Sadie shook her head. 'Uh-uh,' she said. 'Suicides are.' I looked at her. 'Why?' 'Anyone can be crazy,' she answered. 'That's usually just because there's something screwed up in your wiring, you know? But suicide is a whole different thing. I mean, how much do you have to hate yourself to want to just wipe yourself out?","author":"Michael Thomas Ford","tags":["anorexia","arsonist","arsonists","bulimia","crazy","depressed","depressives","drug","druggie","drugs","funny","humor","junkie","junkies","manic-depression","schizophrenia","schizophrenics","suicide"],"id":104081,"author_id":"Michael+Thomas+Ford"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":56,"pages":6,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}