{"text":"That day wasn't the first time I had attempted suicide. Simply disappearing into the distant nothingness where there was no pain and no more feelings - back then I thought it an act of empowerment. Otherwise I had very little power to make any decisions about my life, my body, my actions. Taking my own life seemed my last trump card.","author":"Natascha Kampusch","tags":["depression","despair","hostage","kidnapped","kidnapping","powerless","powerlessness","suicidal","suicide","suicide-attempt","trauma","victim"],"id":99689,"author_id":"Natascha+Kampusch"}