{"author":"Sara Baume","author_id":"Sara+Baume","total_quotes":48,"quotes":[{"text":"In the days approaching Christmas, she always reminds me of the previous year: 'Jane crocheted you an entire poncho, and all you gave her was a bone-shaped beach stone.","author":"Sara Baume","tags":["a-line-made-by-walking","christmas","dialogue","humor","inequity","presents","sara-baume"],"id":20973,"author_id":"Sara+Baume"},{"text":"Why is it only now that I can see how many ordinary things are actually grotesque?","author":"Sara Baume","tags":["a-line-made-by-walking","grotesque","ordinary","perspective","sara-baume"],"id":48219,"author_id":"Sara+Baume"},{"text":"My mother says: 'People who suffer from anxiety are usually those with the most vivid imaginations.","author":"Sara Baume","tags":["a-line-made-by-walking","anxiety","imagination","sara-baume"],"id":55167,"author_id":"Sara+Baume"},{"text":"I decided that if I didn't allow myself to fall asleep, then I wouldn't have to wake up again and despair.","author":"Sara Baume","tags":["a-line-made-by-walking","depression","despair","sara-baume","sleep"],"id":75656,"author_id":"Sara+Baume"},{"text":"I know with unqualified certainty that I want to die. But I also know with equivalent certainty that I won't do anything about it. That I will only remain here and wait for death to indulge me.","author":"Sara Baume","tags":["a-line-made-by-walking","certainty","death","inaction","sara-baume","suicidal","waiting"],"id":85319,"author_id":"Sara+Baume"},{"text":"And yet, here I am. Perceiving everything that is wonderful to be proportionately difficult; everything that is possible an elaborate battle to achieve. My happy life was never enough for me. I always considered my time to be more precious than that of other people and almost every routine pursuit—equitable employment, domestic chores, friendship—unworthy of it. Now I see how this rebellion against ordinary happiness is the greatest vanity of them all.","author":"Sara Baume","tags":["a-line-made-by-walking","depression","difficult","sara-baume","superior"],"id":85675,"author_id":"Sara+Baume"},{"text":"There really isn't much wrong with me,' I say, 'it's just that, well, I'm not like other people; I don't want the things they want. And this is not right, I mean, in other people's eyes, and I feel as though they feel they are duty-bound to normalise me, that it isn't okay just to not want the things they want, you know?","author":"Sara Baume","tags":["a-line-made-by-walking","depression","different","sara-baume"],"id":97178,"author_id":"Sara+Baume"},{"text":"This morning, I see the lead in my glass tumbler. A slim, bright glint, a silverfish. I feel it collecting in my blood, papercutting the lining of my veins.","author":"Sara Baume","tags":["a-line-made-by-walking","description","metaphor","sara-baume"],"id":105519,"author_id":"Sara+Baume"},{"text":"I wish I'd been born with your capacity for wonder. I wouldn't mind living a shorter life if my short life could be as vivid as yours.","author":"Sara Baume","tags":["life","vivid","wonder"],"id":113559,"author_id":"Sara+Baume"},{"text":"But nowadays I feel guilty that I am granted the immunity of the artistically gifted, having never actually achieved anything to prove myself worthy.","author":"Sara Baume","tags":["a-line-made-by-walking","artist","artistic","guilty","sara-baume","worthy"],"id":125132,"author_id":"Sara+Baume"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":48,"pages":5,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}