{"author":"Paula Hawkins","author_id":"Paula+Hawkins","total_quotes":24,"quotes":[{"text":"Life and light will not let me be.","author":"Paula Hawkins","tags":["life","light"],"id":13900,"author_id":"Paula+Hawkins"},{"text":"I want to drag knives over my skin, just to feel something other than shame, but I'm not even brave enough for that.","author":"Paula Hawkins","tags":["brokenness","escape","feelings","hopeless","hurt","life","self-doubt","shame"],"id":18088,"author_id":"Paula+Hawkins"},{"text":"I wake abruptly, my breath jagged and heart racing, my mouth stale, and I know immediately that's it. I'm awake. The more I want to be oblivious, the less I can be. Life and light will not let me be.","author":"Paula Hawkins","tags":["desperation","giving-up","life","loneliness","pain"],"id":21671,"author_id":"Paula+Hawkins"},{"text":"We tell our stories differently, don't we, you and I?","author":"Paula Hawkins","tags":["people","stories"],"id":21779,"author_id":"Paula+Hawkins"},{"text":"I don't remember things. I black out and I can't remember where I've been or what I've done. Sometimes I wonder if I've done or said terrible things, and I can't remember. And if...If someone tells me something I've done, it doesn't even feel like me. It doesn't feel like it was me who was doing that thing. And it's so hard to feel responsible for something you don't remember. So I never feel bad enough. I feel bad, but the thing that I've done --it's removed from me. It's like it doesn't belong to me.","author":"Paula Hawkins","tags":["blackout","drunk","memory","therapy","thriller"],"id":38211,"author_id":"Paula+Hawkins"},{"text":"Every time I think I'm about to seize the moment, it drifts back into the shadows, just beyond my reach.","author":"Paula Hawkins","tags":["crime","mystery-suspense","thriller"],"id":49106,"author_id":"Paula+Hawkins"},{"text":"She's cuckoo, laying her egg in my nest.","author":"Paula Hawkins","tags":["betrayal","infidelity"],"id":98778,"author_id":"Paula+Hawkins"},{"text":"I'm not romantic, and I don't like Christmas.","author":"Paula Hawkins","tags":["romantic","like "],"id":106794,"author_id":"Paula+Hawkins"},{"text":"The holes in your life are permanent. You have to grow around them, like tree roots around concrete; you mold yourself through the gaps.","author":"Paula Hawkins","tags":["learning","life-lessons","life-philosophy","self-help"],"id":107106,"author_id":"Paula+Hawkins"},{"text":"Who's to say that once I run, I'll find that isn't enough? Who's to say I won't end up feeling exactly the way I do right now-not safe, but stifled? Maybe I'll want to run again, and again, and eventually I'll end up back on those old tracks, because there's nowhere left to go. Maybe. Maybe not. You have to take the risk, don't you.","author":"Paula Hawkins","tags":["brokenness","fear","hope","hopeless","life-evaluating","lost","self-evaluating","uncertainty","wonderment"],"id":118977,"author_id":"Paula+Hawkins"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":24,"pages":3,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}