{"author":"Nina LaCour","author_id":"Nina+LaCour","total_quotes":62,"quotes":[{"text":"The first time she carved something into her skin, she used the sharp tip of an X-Acto knife. She lifted up her shirt to show me after the cuts had scabbed over. She had scrawled F*** YOU on her stomach. I stood quiet for a moment, feeling the breath get knocked out of me. I should have grabbed her arm and taken her straight to the nurse's office, into that small room with two cots covered in paper sheets and the sweet, stale medicinal. ","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["cutting","friends"],"id":9596,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"He wipes tears off my face and then snot. He uses his hands. He loves me that much.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["best-friend","crying","daughter","death","depression","face","father","father-daughter-relationship","friend","grief","hands","love","sadness","snot","suicide","tears","upset"],"id":17019,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"Friendship is about more than facts. It's about knowing what someone is thinking, or knowing enough to know that you don't. But I guess it's also about not letting too much time go by without asking them questions, so you don't end up looking at them one afternoon, the sun so bright you have to squint, realizing that you hardly recognize the person they've become.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["friendship"],"id":24637,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"I'm sorry I left without telling you,' she says. 'I wasn't ready. I wanted it so much, and I wasn't ready for that.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["drama","girls","love","romance"],"id":26719,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"All I have is a life's worth of school days. What came before school I can't remember. You can only sketch so many desks and teachers and chalkboards. You can only come home to so many dinners and homework assignments and nights of taking the garbage out. You can only go to so many museum field trips before you start to wonder, Is this it?","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["life","travel"],"id":27553,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"My life is just waiting for you to get started.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["crushes","love","sadness"],"id":29390,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"There are degrees of obsession, of awareness, of grief, of insanity.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["grief","inspirational"],"id":33970,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"There are so many things that I want so badly to tell you but I just can't.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["regret","suicide"],"id":40089,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"It isn't the happy ending Ingrid and I had dreamed up, but it's all a part of what I'm working through. The way life changes. The way people and things disappear. Then appear, unexpectedly, and hold you close.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["change","disappear","happy-ending","inspiration","life","love","people"],"id":42650,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"},{"text":"I’ll make a swing so I can reach the places I can’t reach yet.","author":"Nina LaCour","tags":["hold-still","hope","nina-lacour"],"id":42706,"author_id":"Nina+LaCour"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":62,"pages":7,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}