{"author":"Harriet Evans","author_id":"Harriet+Evans","total_quotes":15,"quotes":[{"text":"She was different. She liked hearing it, because she wanted to recall just enough of it to remember that she never wanted to go back to being the person she'd been before.","author":"Harriet Evans","tags":["moving-on"],"id":4903,"author_id":"Harriet+Evans"},{"text":"She didn't want to forget how deeply she had loved him, how important it had been to her; she felt as if to discard the memory would be a betrayal of her younger self.","author":"Harriet Evans","tags":["memories","nostalgia","the-past"],"id":6689,"author_id":"Harriet+Evans"},{"text":"She, who had never liked weddings, had allowed herself this fantasy. Her wedding day to Rory. A pretty church in Sussex, festooned with spring flowers. Rows of relatives, and her, Elle, floating down the aisle in cream silk to 'The arrival of queen Sheba', with eyes only for him... Rory, slightly rumpled, slightly scared, her love, her only one.But that wasn't how it had turned out. She knew she was OK, watching him, in fact she was happy for him, happy for Libby. But she couldn't help but feel a pang of sympathy for the girl she'd been, who'd loved him so much. She was still dreaming somewhere, hoping this day would come.","author":"Harriet Evans","tags":["heartache","moving-on","nostalgia"],"id":139463,"author_id":"Harriet+Evans"},{"text":"To know yourself is to know where you're from.","author":"Harriet Evans","tags":["self-awareness"],"id":169133,"author_id":"Harriet+Evans"},{"text":"She wanted to sit in the pub with him the way Sam did with Steve, the way Matty and Karen had done last weekend with their boyfriends, to hold his hand as they walked down the street, to be able to smile in public at him, not this controlled, agonisingly formal behaviour. It struck her, this week in particular, that she was completely isolated. She couldn't talk to him, she couldn't talk to her friends, and she didn't know when that would change. And she couldn't do anything about it; she was weak, because she loved him too much, not that that was weakness, but - she was powerless.","author":"Harriet Evans","tags":["alone","no-control","tricky-situations"],"id":210479,"author_id":"Harriet+Evans"},{"text":"Since being back in London everything seemed greyer, but clearer. She couldn't explain it. The strangest thing was she couldn't recall her New York self. She wanted that part of herself back, but she couldn't remember what it was like to be that Elle. She would catch a whiff of it, like the snatch of a song that still won't lead you to the chorus, and then it would be gone.","author":"Harriet Evans","tags":["changing","growing-up","moving-on"],"id":246802,"author_id":"Harriet+Evans"},{"text":"She had lost him. Lost him because she'd let him go. And she could not allow herself to regret that decision.","author":"Harriet Evans","tags":["heartache","losing-faith","regret"],"id":292316,"author_id":"Harriet+Evans"},{"text":"No, she learned that true love was epic stuff, as told by Mary.","author":"Harriet Evans","tags":["love","true"],"id":312641,"author_id":"Harriet+Evans"},{"text":"Everyone's allowed to be in love with the wrong person at some point. In fact, it's a mistake not to be.","author":"Harriet Evans","tags":["break-ups","life","love","wisdom"],"id":319223,"author_id":"Harriet+Evans"},{"text":"It's just odd being a guest at the wedding. When you dreamed about it for so long, even if you we're a different person, and it was years ago. Sounds so stupid. I was stupid.","author":"Harriet Evans","tags":["heartache","moving-on","nostalgia"],"id":368407,"author_id":"Harriet+Evans"}],"pagination":{"page":1,"page_size":10,"total":15,"pages":2,"next":"?page=2\u0026page_size=10"}}